PACT

I made a deal with the devil. Again. Yes. In flesh and blood. And again, I was disappointed. I guess, evil as they are, they do not keep their own promises. Trust? They don't know what that means. :|

I made a mission. For this year, and for the years to come. Remember the 7 deadly sins? I am too guilty of one.PRIDE. Ow well, there's another one too. And another. But nah, that's another story. :) So I engineered a way to lessen it. I focused on one aspect as the others were too hard to swallow. YET. :)

I made a move. Failed. Tried it again. Succeeded. But, failed eventually. Tried it one more time. Succeeded. Yet, still, failed. It dawned on me that the mission never actually entailed success. Epiphanies poured like an avalanche. I was successful. Had never been more successful in my life. :) But, that does not follow that I was happy. Because I also realized one simple thing. :|

I made a face. Gawd, this is sooo humiliating. But I guess, that was the entire point! As what I've always told them about the reason for this madness, "This is good for the soul."

I made a revision. I revised the pact created. And since, my pact partner no longer wants to 
bind herself with it, I'll make a pact with myself then. To continue this insanity for the years to come. At least, just on Valentine's Day. :)



Happy Valentine's Day everyone.... Share the love. Be happy. :)

Serious talkers

I dont know what's the best way to express my gratitude. I guess maybe is to create a note of it? :D

This goes to my serious talkers. (3 out of 5 knows they are part of this. hehe) I called them "MY" because I invented THE term anyway. Don't worry, I'm not possessive. Manghihiram lng ako. Buy your time.

I thank you for keeping me company. I like being alone, but I also like not being alone. It's contradictory but never mind. :D

I thank you for the effort of making me less insane. As you well know that I talk to myself. So I gather that it's best to have someone to talk to, with rather sensible responses. :D

I thank you for the endless bickering. I like discussions. It fuels me. Let me quote my former schoolmate, "Talk is cheap, Let's debate."

I thank you for the new ideas (e.g. songs, people, events) <<<< at may e.g. pa akong nalalaman. Really, I'm outdated. I guess I said I don't watch TV? *with a smug face*

I thank you for the trust. It's elating to know that you confide in me. That means I could be trusted too. I guess I can now understand what Annie meant about the reassurer is now the one assured and on "i tell you, i tell me, you tell me, you tell you". Now its your turn to decipher what that means. :D

I thank you for trying to put up with me, and relate to what I am trying to say or share. I could be ambiguous like mad! Nonetheless, I just wanted to say, I wish I met you guys sooner. I'd like to keep you, but that remains unseen. Last time I checked, I'm only down to 2-3 of u now.

Gawd, im blabbering again. *smiles*